Let me just use Slipknot' Duality to express me feelings...

(I push my fingers into my) Eyes
Itís the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But itís made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes onÖ

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I waited as my timeís elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess Iíll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
Youíre left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
Itís the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pains goes on I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces
Then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality
Is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
Itís the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But itís made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It works its way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
Itís the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But itís made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It works its way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!
All I've got!
All I've gone is insane!